Originally Posted on Living Better 50
When my daughter was little she had a knack for wiggling herself right in between my husband and I. Whether we were sitting, standing or, laying in bed, she would wiggle herself right in. It became a joke with us. We would sit as close as we could on the couch and in no time she would be on our laps. Than it started, her famous wiggle. It was such a subtle movement that she used and before long she would be sitting between us. Every time she accomplished this she would look up at us with her big brown eyes and a little wry smile as if to say, “look what I just did”.
With our daughter we could let our guard down. We could leave her wiggle room. There are some things however that we cannot let our guard down to. Doubt is one of those things. If we give doubt any wiggle room you better believe it will wiggle it’s way in. Trust me, when doubt wiggles in it won’t be looking up at you with big brown eyes like those of my little girl. On the contrary, it will sit there with an “Eddie Haskell” like smile on its face. You know the kind of look that says, “Trust me I would never lead you astray”-wink, wink. The truth is, doubt wants nothing more than to lead you so far off track that you no longer believe what is true to be true.
As I was asked to write for different things, doubt began to creep in. It pulled up a seat next to me with its “Eddie Haskell” smile and tried to take to me off track. Doubt tried to make me believe there was no way I would be able to do the one thing I had prayed God would open the door for me to do. I had prayed about writing for a ministry for mothers and daughters and I prayed about writing for this a magazine. Yet, as God began to open the doors I began to doubt I had the ability to do it. I started to feel God had called the wrong person.
Yep, doubt had snuggled in between God’s promises and myself. I had to get it out of the way so I did the one thing I knew would work. I gave my doubt to God. Raising my shield of faith I prayed:
“God you opened this door so I trust you will give me what I need to write about. Please give me your words, the topics, and take my pride out of the way so that my words are your words. Please God remove the doubt”
I told God that I felt like Moses who did not have the words. I knew God sent Moses’s brother to be his helper and I asked Him to give me a helper too. That night as I slept God sent me a helper. He sent the Holy Spirit to help me. I woke up singing this scripture.
“Seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added unto you. Matthew 6:33 (KJV).
God showed me that night if I seek Him first and trust Him with my writing, he would give me just what I needed. In that moment doubt was kicked out of the comfortable seat it had made next to me. God had opened this door and I had to trust that He would not open the door and leave me standing there empty with nothing to say.
God has given me what I need to write for both places. My writing began to come easier as I have trusted Him. Still, I was faced with another issue. I am not the best when it comes to spelling and my punctuation is sometimes all wrong. This time however when doubt tried to wiggle back it failed. I was now tightly pressed into God so that doubt could not wiggle back in and I trusted that God would send me another helper. My prayers were that God would help me find a friend who could do some editing. Sure enough He came through with that and I didn’t even have to go looking for her. God would cross my path with godly woman who was an editor and is now someone I can call my friend. Doubt no longer had a strong hold on me.
If you find yourself doubting what God has for you the best thing you can do is to take that doubt right back to Him in prayer and ask Him to show you his truth. You need to believe that God is not going to open a door and than leave you standing there with nothing but doubt in front of you. If God has called you to do something and you feel He as called the wrong person think again. It is most often the person who seems the least qualified that God chooses. Remember, with Him anything is possible.
Our daughter is 19 now and if she ever wants to wiggle in between us you better believe we will give her all the room she needs. As far as doubt goes I learned an important lesson and I am not going to give it any wiggle room.
With the New Year upon us, and the resolutions you have made, it is important to grab a hold of God tightly and never leave wiggle room for doubt in anything.
Happy New Year